I remember when I was younger it seemed as though everyday was a fresh new start and a brand new opportunity to explore, play, and learn.
Now it's all the same. Every fucking day I always wake up with the desperate sense of repetition and I constantly say to myself, "just try and make it". Every day, all day, all the time, its just these 4 walls with the same lifeless faces on the wall, and the same lifeless face staring right back at them. Every fucking day its always the same faces on the monitor and the same fucking voice coming from the speakers. The same songs. The same news. Someone is dead. People are hungry. We are losing money. However, when I get to school, I see new faces. This is such a relief, I finally get to experience raw emotions from other people like me. But sooner or later, the repetition settles in again. Everyone puts their head down and shuffles along just trying to get through the day and preform their duties like machines. Sometimes I forget that the people around me are not machines. We are more than machines. We've cried. We've laughed. We've made love. We've lost loved ones. We were all kids once. Everyone wants to play. But those who are forced to play, can never play. You're a player just like me. You've been apart of this game for awhile. You just haven't been aware of it until now. There's people around you who know how to play, and they're trying to give you a head start. Your teachers, your parents, your family, and maybe even your true friends. However, most of them are playing to win. You cant win this game, no one ever has. Do you know why? Because, if you were to "win", the game would be over, wouldn't it? Everything you see around you will be right here when you leave. But you'll never know that. Winners of the game, are given the title of "winner" because the other players recognized that individual as the victor of the game, right? But how will you ever win, when all of the players you're playing with will leave just like you. There will be no more players, and you wont be a winner. After that, someone else will enter the game to take your place, and the repetition occurs over and over again. Play to play, do not play to win. You will drive yourself insane you believe that your eventual involvement in the rat race is permanent, and not temporary. While it is true that you are apart of one big rat race. It's not your fault. None of us were asked if we wanted to play. We are just players. But I'm glad I get to play with you. After all, we've been playing since the start. Who's to say that I wont see you again.
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