I am always awkward when it involves trying to be the coolest guy in the room to impress the girls.
I always wake up too late and complain about how school starts way to early for people like me. I never want to take the advice of adults and think I know what I'm doing all the time. I can't control my hormones so the only thing on my mind is sex and worrying about my sex appeal. I sneak out of the house and go hang out with my friends and get high. I go to school with teachers who have lost hope in my generation and scorn us for being inexperienced. I am constantly annoyed by responsibility and procrastinate all of my work until the next day, or next week I walk alone during the night trying to find answers to questions bigger than myself. I lay in bed all night wondering what I did wrong and if people actually like me. I worry too much about if people really care about what I am doing all the time. I worry too much about trying to fit in and become part of a clique. I come home from school and lay on my bed getting lost in music that speaks the words I cant say. I feel good when a teacher or an adult says they are proud of me and I'm doing good work. I lie about doing that work, when I just copied it from someone else. I always look forward to the next break or 3 day vacation. I go out to football games and watch movies late at night. I hang out with a girl who says I am the best she has ever had. I think she is the most important thing in my life. I say I love you before I know what love means. I think I know what's best for me. I shut people out who are just trying to help me. I see my friends disappear and drop out of school. I see them trying to find that next hit instead of finding what their dreams are. I see some of them pass away for an accident that we think can never happen to us. I remember when times used to be simpler. I just want to go back to the times when I didn't care. I reach an all time low. I feel low, all the time. I wish I didn't feel. I wish I was dead. I remember the good times. I smile. I order a pizza I eat the whole thing. I lay back and enjoy my youth for the moment. I am a teenager.
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It's Makalla
4/27/2016 10:02:35 am
Great blog 🙃
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Taylor
5/9/2016 10:24:31 am
"I order. Pizza and eat the whole thing" lol yes
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Maddy h
5/16/2016 05:29:09 pm
Good writing
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Durr
5/20/2016 08:25:08 am
I think you're my spirit animal.
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Jasmine
5/30/2016 03:15:37 pm
wow Gabe this is deep and really good i could relate to quite a bit of these statements, we all have felt this one at a time in our lives or eventually will, good job man
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Luci
6/2/2016 01:34:47 pm
This is very good! Great blog.
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